Mom
His son, Memorial weekend is over, I am glad. I went to the lake and tried to have a good time but it is almost useless to try these days. Holidays are for family and part of mine is missing and it just makes me realize that much more when I try to celebrate anything. Like I said, nothing will ever be the same again unless you come home and are here to celebrate it with us. I am still praying and hoping for the best regardless of how dismal it seems at times. I will never stop believing that God still answers prayers and will answer mine.
AT
Hello Jeffrey -- Its Memorial Day Weekend. I am thinking of your mom right now Jeffrey, wishing so much that her nightmare would end. I pray every night for this to be over and for her to find out something – anything. She will find out someday Jeffrey. She needs you Jeffrey, she needs you to come home. She needs to find out what happened to you, and she needs to know why. This has gone on long enough. I just hope that you know how very much you are loved and missed. I will never ever forget you. Until next time. As always – I LOVE YOU.
Destiny,
Jeffrey, people ask me all the time "why do you e-mail Jeffrey like you are having a conversation with him," I began to wonder that myself, but then I felt as if I let you down when I questioned myself. I know why, it’s because if you are out there and you are reading this I want you to know that you still and will always have family and friends waiting and watching for you to return home. There is never a day when I don’t think about you, wonder where you are, and what happened to you. I find myself watching out for Preston constantly (cause your not here so someone has to!) Cory is in the hospital, he has been for 2 days from a kidney infection and I know how Aunt Dawn feels with him just being in the hospital I can only imagine what your mom feels not having a clue where you are and if you are all right. The search isn’t over until’ we find you. NO MATTER WHO IS INVOLVED. Your not nor will you ever be forgotten. XOXOXOXOXO
Mom
Son, I am sick in the pit of my stomach. It is 5-22-02 and I have watched TV all day, they found Chandra Levy’s body in a park where they had looked right after she cam up "missing" exactly one year ago. I watched CNN every night when news of her came on in the case I could learn something I might could do in our search for you. I feel so badly for her parents that the search for her has ended this way. Jeffrey, I can’t bear the thought of our search ending that way, Jeffrey let it be by a phone
Call from you. God, please let Jeffrey be alive! Please God don’t let what happened to Chandra be what happened to Jeffrey. I pray that the worthless, gutless, slime that killed her pays in the worst way. I pray that the worthless, gutless, slime that has anything to do with you being missing also pays in the worse sort of way. Lisa is leaving son, she is going to NYC but you know how I always tried to let you two do what I thought would make you happy. I just have to pray that she will be safe, just like I always prayed that you would be. I love you son.
TAMMY STAMPS
Hi Bubba, Can you believe school is out again for the summer. This is Jiro’s second summer without you around Bubba and I know it hurts him a lot. He will tell us that he would rather just be by himself. Sometimes I worry about him. He misses you terribly. You know you mom is right. You are still the bet looking guy to graduate Clayton High!, of course until bubba Preston graduates! Haha! No just kidding. I was also remembering at the graduation about Blake telling everybody that "Bubba don’t have no underwear on!" Your little brothers along with the rest of us miss you terribly. Well Bubba we sure hope you make it home this summer. Love you lots GOD BLESS TAM TAM
AT
Hello Jeffrey … Well school is out for the summer now. That means its been nearly 16 months since you’ve been gone from us. What happened Jeffrey? What happened on that fateful night. You know, I’ve always been told "live each day like it’s your last" Now I understand what that means. What were you doing that night you disappeared? I’ve heard rumors, but I know there is only two people who truly know … you and God. God will let us know what happened to you Jeffrey, it may be next week, it could be next month, and it could even be next year, but we will find out. The truth will prevail. As always --- I Love You.
Mom
His Son. I am listening to the CD Preston made for you with "your" songs on it. Really missing you a lot like I have since 1-29th and wishing you were here. Me. Lisa. Blake, and Mark need you so much. I don’t do much more tha exist these days Jeffrey and I need you here to make me smile again and to hold and comfort me. You have always been my little man, when I was at my lowest points in life you were there to tell me you would take care of me son and I need you so much!!! I pray every day numerous times a day that you are OK somewhere and you will find your way home. I feel so helpless son because I have searched everywhere and I can’t find you. I wish someone would have the courage to tell me. Son, you are ALWAYS on my mind.
Lisa (Sissy)
Hey Bubba,
I have neglected writing in your guestbook and I am sorry. I think, perhaps, I was too busy feeling sorry for myself for retarded things … anyhow, I am close to finishing my second book … you would like it (a lot) and somehow I keep thinking that it will bring me closer to you or something ridiculous like that. I was just thinking about how you have changed the world already. Everyone knows "Jeffrey Lee Ben" and I think about what "Jeffrey Lee Ben" is to me and I wonder, truly, if I will EVER know how hugely monumental that is … it’s so beautiful that is makes me cry. I’m going back to NYC on the 23rd of this month. It’s sort of a shedding – skin process for me. You would be so proud of mom, Jeffrey – she’s so strong … you would love it and well, you always knew. I wish dad could be the same but that bitch wife if his has him so brainwashed as she always has … at least she can no longer emotionally abuse us bubba … don’t worry … I’ll try and save dad for you. Blake … well … he needs you a lot. Mark Bradley is such a good kid … you would laugh a lot with him. I miss telling you, "Jeffrey don’t throw Blake on the bed that hard you’ll rupture him!" ha I miss you, bottom line. You said if I ever needed you to call your cell phone - that poor new customer that has your number now .. ha .. they think I am a schizo … I don’t care. I find you every single day in everything I do and, well, in every now in the in other people … it’s beautiful when I recognize that you never left you just made everything more beautiful … I love you bubby roo roo roo always wrecks on his new new bike …
Destiny
Jeffrey, Since we moved closer to my Aunt Dawn and Uncle Jerry me and Cory have been together quite a bit here lately. You’ll never know the impact you had upon his life and the devastation he’s going through. Youu have put the love of baseball in his life that keeps burning! There’s not a day that goes by when he doesn’t think about you or talk about you. It’s really hard for him to think he may possibly never see you again. There is a hold in his heart that only you can fill. I miss you and I know he does too! Please COME HOME! XOXOXOXOXOXO
S. Allen
Hi Jeffrey, yesterday was mothers day and even though my mother wasn’t here to share it with, there was several people that made my day special. First was Kristina, she has really grown up this past year and I thank God for my daughters, because without them, I wouldn’t be a mother. Second, was your mom. I know she was hurting, it must have been a very hard day for her and despite her sadness she still remembered me and that touched my heart. I think everyone’s thoughts were about your mom yesterday at church and we had special prayer for her last night for God to uplift her and comfort her and to bring you back home. When you a mother, your whole world revolves around your children and I can’t imagine one of them missing. You have a very special mother Jeffrey, wish you were here to tell her so, she needs you home so bad. With much love and prayers that never cease.
Mom
His Son. It is Mothers day. It has been a sad day like every holiday since 1-29-01. I had several people think o you today and called to check on me and wish me a happy mother’s day. Destiny called, she is such a special friend of yours. I have also met someone whose brother has been missing since Feb. 2001 and it has helped so much to talk to her. I also have another friend whose brother has been missing for 10 yrs. I hope and pray we do not have to go through this that long. Son, I miss you so much, nothing or no one can fill you spot. Son, I know the las are going to find you. I have full confidence that God will lead them to you. Wish you were here> I went to Clayton graduation and all I could do is remember you walking across that stage receiving your diploma, you were by far the best looking boy there. You are by far the best looking boy anywhere. Inside and out. You are just as close to perfect as someone can be. Wish you were here. I love you, son and you are ALWAYS on my mind.
Tamoliestamps
Hi bubba. Once again I have cried all my make – up off. I have been so terribly burdened for you this week, and I think Preston has too. You know your mom had a birthday this week. We had some cake and ice cream at the carlot, but we all know there’s nothing we could do to make her have a happy birthday, or happy any day without you. Bubbba I sure wish you was here to help me deal with jiro. He’s not a bad kid, but he has just made some bad decisions like we all have. I figure you could give him some advice on the whole think of being a teenager and wanting to get in with the crowd, and wanting to serve Got too. Sometimes so called friends are really not in your best interest huh? Well anyway I know that he misses you really bad, as we all do. I’m still hanging on to the only dream I have ever had about you. I couldn’t figure out why I was doing so much cooking, because it wasn’t Christmas or thanksgiving, then I looked out the window and your mom’s car pulled up along with all our family, and you got out. I swear you looked seven feet tall instead of 6’3"! Then I relized we were having a huge welcome home dinner in your honor! We were all so happy. Lets believe dreams come true bubba! Can’t wait to see you again. Love you lots tam tam & jiro.
Mom
Son, remember when we used to talk about heaven and I always said that when I closed my eyes and thought about heaven what I would see was something like the garden of Eden with me and my 4 kids there together having a picnic, Do you remember that? Well anyway, it was my birthday a few days ago and when I got home from work, Blake blindfolded me and he, Lisa and baby Mark put me in Lisa’s car and drove me somewhere and when they took the blindfold off we were at a field with a big tree and they had a blanket and picnic basket full of food and drinks. Lisa placed everything perfectly and then put your picture out so you could be there with us. She said "see mom, you can have you picnic with all your kids". It brought tears to my eyes and the only thing that could have made it better was if it were really you rather than just your picture. Son, I miss you. I love you so much!! I live for the day I will see you again.
Hollis simpson
Jeffrey I thought I better let you know that I have to go away for a couple of years. But I want you to know I’ll still be thinking & looking for you & when I come home I hope to see you standing there with your mom. Well my heart & thoughts will be with you & your family. If you ain’t there you can bet I’ll be looking for you. I consider you & your family my family and family sticks together no matter what. Well I ‘ll go for now Hoss
Destiny
Jeffrey, We have 9 days of school left! I can’t wait till we get out of school! We went to State in softball AGAIN but we lost out the first round. But we had a lot of fun while we were there! I still wonder and worry about you every day. Where ever you are I want you to know that you are never far from my mind. I miss you so much XOXOXOXOXO
AT
Hello Jeffrey – You know school is almost out for the summer. I can’t believe how fast the months are passing. I went to Tuskahoma the other day and I decided to take Nine Pine Road. I haven’t been on that road since I went there to see you mom when the search party was out looking for you. Anyway. I got to the corner and "your" tree and sign and I stopped and looked and cried and cried and cried. I haven’t cried like that since I first got the news you were missing. You have touched so many peoples lives Jeffrey, and the people who know you have been blessed tremendously, and the people who don’t know you don’t know what they have missed. As always, I think about you every day and night and still pray every night for you to COME HOME. Until next time --- I LOVE YOU …mom
Mom,
Son it is raining today. Rainy days make me especially sad. I miss you so much. No matter how much I pray, it doesn’t go away. Blake said "ok mama" this morning and it sounded just like you saying it. I just cried. I would give everything I own to hear you say that just one more time. Son, I love you and would do anything to have you here again. I yearn to touch you, and just look at your face, and just hear your voice and your laugh. I miss your smile and your presence more than anything I have ever known. Please son let me know how to find you? I pray unceasingly.
Destiny
Jeffrey, You’ll never believe what I get to do AGAIN? I get to go to the STATE CHAMPSIONSHIP TOURNAMENT! Is that not the coolest thing in the world? I am so excited! Wish you were here to go and see us play! Maybe if you come back around I will let you sport my GOLD ring around awhile just so you can see how it feels to wear one! Love you Lots and I miss you more every day!
Destiny
Jeffrey, Clancy is here! He weights 8 lbs. And 2 ounces! He’s 20 ½ inches long! He’s not really cute (YET) but you know hoe that goes! Come home so you can see him! Even if he never really sees you (he WILL KNOW ABOUT YOU)!
Mom
Hi Son, they found Darell Hamman’s billfold this weekend at the spillway at Sardis. He has been missing since before Christmas. It made me sick. I have been praying for him to be alive also. I just don’t understand what has happened to our beloved community of Clayton. It seems evil has taken over. Son, I pray every day for your safe return home. Pray also for Darells safe return home to his mother and children. GOD INTECEDE!!! Please bring Jeffrey safely home to his family and friends that miss him so! We love him and need him.
Destiny
Jeffrey, Charity is having her baby (Clancy) today! She has been in the hospital since 7:oo this morning! It’s so crazy! I wish that you were here to make fun of her (cause she gets mad at me!) Love You Lots!
Destiny
Jeffrey, I hit a homerun today in our game! I dedicated it to you! Wish you would have been here to see it! We also had out honor’s banquet tonight to and of course I was there (ha!ha!) Aren’t you ready for summer? This weather is crazy but feels good! GREAT SOFTBALL WEATHER! Still miss you more everyday! XOXOXOXOXO
Lisa (Sissy)
Hey bub,
My life is completely different as it was even a week ago. A lot has happened – good and bad – but I have somehow turned the bad into the good. Still home – I think everyday what a failure I am so it’s tough without you … you were always the one telling me how one day I will be something. I have been going through some serious career confusion … I have done a lot I guess but there is so much more I want to do. I think about this and I become completely disillusioned because not only should you BE HERE to be talking to me and holding my hand But you never even got the opportunity to worry about such. I had another religion argument today with some high school kid. It was funny. I thought about you then it didn’t seem as funny anymore. Being here is keeping me grounded, which humbles me thinking about everything I have already done.
24 years old …my little brother is not here … hell, I doubt dad even remembers I exist half the time. I wonder if you know how much you have changed the world for a lot of people bub … having had you in my life even for such a brief time … well, I will always cherish that and I am so lucky to have been one of the two closest and most important women in your life. You’re the guy that all the others have to measure up to … you’re my dream guy, bubba, and you always have been. Never in my entire life will I ever be able to forget all my years with you…I am very lucky to have been with you since birth and for the 18 years and 7.5 months of your existence in my world…I only hope that I am afforded the chance to spend many more with you and physically… if I never see you again… I will always meet you in my dreams and in my memory…I love you.
Destiny
Jeffrey, My sister had to go to the doctor today (we thought she was going into labor) and we had to walk around the hospital for a hour so we went to eat (imagine that) and we saw chocolate milk and it reminded me of you, so then we to talking about you! You are everywhere and ALWAYS on our minds. I think that to many times we failed to tell you or show you just what you mean to all of us and we now see how important little things like saying I LOVE YOU are. Jeffrey I love you and I want you home more than anything! All My Love!
Teena
Hi Jeffrey…I dreamed about you last night, and I wanted to tell you about it. I dreamed I was driving to Clayton and I picked you up walking on the highway. It was pouring rain and you were freezing. I didn’t have a coat with me, and all I could find was a blanket of Daniel’s (my baby) so I wrapped it around you the best I could. You kept telling me "I’m hungry Aunt Teena (you always called me that) I haven’t ate in three days" so I took you to the café and bought you something to eat. We sat there in the café and talked and I asked you where you had been for the last 14 months, but you wouldn’t tell me. That’s all I remember about the dream. I woke up crying and thinking Jeffrey is fine. I wish that were true, I wish you were home where you belong, with your family. I know they miss you so very much, just like I, and everyone else does. I pray for you every night Jeffrey, and I pray that his nightmare will come to an end soon for your family’s sake. I love you Jeffrey … Aunt Teena
Destiny
Jeffrey, The prom is this Sat! I can’t believe it, the year is almost over. But just because it’s summer doesn’t mean I won’t be busy! Guess who I am working with though!?! Preston. Cool huh? I will TRY and take care of him while you are gone and make sure he doesn’t get into too much trouble! Love Bunches!
Mom
Jeffrey, the boys and I were coming home from Dallas airport today and a crew of men were digging a ditch on the side of the highway. We we passes there was a guy that looked just like you. He was tall and slim and even Blake said mom that looks like Jeffrey. WE were in so much traffic but I could not go by without stopping to see if by chance it could possibly be you, besides that Blake staring yelling for me to stop.I turned around in all that traffic and ran over where they were working and the boss met me. I said you will probably think I am crazy but that boy looks just like my son that has been missing for over a year. I showed him a picture and siad I just has to look at him. The boy looked up at me from the sitch where he was working and he smiled a big beautiful smile like yours and said "I’m sorry" and I said no my son has brown eyes yours are blue. I walked away and ran across the 4-lanes of traffic to get back in my car. Blake asked if it was you and I said no and he asked why I didn’t get the boys phone number and I said because it wasn’t Jeffrey and he said but mama you could’ve brought him home with us because he looks like Jeffrey and then we started to cry. Son, am I gouing to see you everywhere I go? Am I going to be disappointed every time it is not you? Where are you? How can I find you? I know there are some spineless, yellow coward in Clayton, Ok that knows what happened to you that night and theya re not big enough to tell us the truth. I hope they live in hell on earth like they have caused us for the past 14 months. God, Jeffrey-the pain of missing you is so great at times. Blake is my rock. He just holds me. We fell to sleep last night listening to your CD with all the songs that remind us of you. Son, I wish you were here with me and Lisa and Blake and Mark. We would all sleep in my king size bed together and hold each other all night. I love you son. I hope you have a warm, nice bed to sleep in. Maybe God will bless me with a good dream of you. Maybe he would even make me the happiest person in the world and bring you back home again. I love you my beautiful, precious son.
Sheila Allen
Jeffrey, where ever you are, I hope it’s someplace nice and safe. I thougt of you several times yesterday at Easter. I know your mom missed you a lot and I couldn’t help but remember you and Lisa running around hunting Easter eggs at church. I wanted to say something to your mom but I know she knows we miss you too and sometimes it is just to painful to talk about. The first thing I thought of when I seen your whole family there filling up the pews was that you were missing and it wasn’t complete and never will be till your back at home. We miss you Jeffrey and our prayers are with you always.
Mom
Son, we went to our old church at Nolia today for Easter. Of course everywhere I looked I remembered things about you. You crawling under the seats, over the seats, you hunting Easter eggs. The boys enjoyed it. Lisa went also. Granny Montano and I then went to the tree, so did Lisa. I left you an Easter card. Son, it just isn’t right. You should’ve been with us. I has to take Mark to the ER after we got home. He was jumping on the trampoline and a twig came up and cut his eyebrow. He had to have about 7 stiches. It was awful-he just cried, so did Lisa. I was signing his name and I almost signed yours instead. You are just ALWAYS on my mind, no matter where I am or what I am doing. While Mark was crying, I wondered if you cried Jan. 29. I wondered if you were in pain. Son, it kills me to think of anyone hurting you. You have to be out there some where OK. You just have to be. I miss you so much-there is just nothing I can do to stop it. I love you with my entire being. I pray for God’s hand to be on you, wherever you are-my precious, beautiful son.
Destiny
Jeffrey, Happy Easter! Love you Bunches!
Mom
Son, I am really having a hard time. I miss you so bad it is almost unbearable. I know the bible says God will not put on us more than we can bear but son this pain is horrific. I can’t stop thinking about you. Where are you? What happened to you. Why aren’t the law doing what they need to do to find you. Why can’t I find you? Why isn’t the God that I believe in so much answering my prayers and bringing you to me? I don’t understand. Jeffrey, I need you. I want you here so much that I can’t hardly bear being here without you. If it weren’t for Lisa and the 2 boys I don’t know what I would do. If it weren’t for knowing there is a God and I do believe he will work this out-but when? Jeffrey, this would is just not the happy, beautiful place it was to me before 1-29-01. Please come home. Please if anyone knows anything, tell me. I have to know what happened to my son. He deserves to be here with his family. I love you Jeffrey, you know you are always on my mind.
AT
Hi Jeffrey…You know Easter is only 3 days away not and we could all use a big miracle on that day. Please come home Jeffrey, we all miss you so much. I think about you all the time, day and night and I don’t think I can ever stop. I love you Jeffrey, you are such a sweet caring person, and I can’t imagine anyone wanting to harm you in any way, or whatever may have been. Please Jeffrey…if you are out there and can read all these messages on your website, you know so many people are hurting because you have been gone so long. Your mom has got to be the strongest person I know because if I were in her shoes I think I wouldn’t be able to continue on. I pray for you every night, and always end them with "Lord please let us know something about Jeffrey, please Lord send him home to us." Anyway---Happy Easter Jeffrey Ben…I Love You.
Tammy Stamps
HI, BUBBA. I WROTE YOU A LETTER YESTERDAY, BUT I CAN’T FIND IT ON HERE , SO HERE I AM AGAIN. I DON’T COME TO YOUR WEBSITE VERY OFTEN BECAUSE IT MAKES ME CRY ALL MY MAKE-UP OFF AT WORK, AND I REALLY DON’T NEED OT BE SCARIN THE CUSTOMWERS OFF.HA! HA! I’M STILL HOLDING OUT FOR OUR MIRACLE THAT YOU WILL JUST COME HOME. SOMETIMES IT’S ALMOST UNBEARABLE HOW MUCH WE MISS YOU. I GUESS IN A WAY IT’S GOOD THAT OUT LIVES OUR SO BUSY WITH KIDS, TRYING TO MAKE A LIVING, ECT OR ELSE WE PROBABLY COULDN’T FUNCTION FOR THE PAIN OF NO HAVING YOU AROUND. JIRO MISSES YOU TOO! CAN YOU BELIEVE HE’S 16 NOW? WELL GOTTA GO, PRAYERS, LOVE, HUGS AND KISSES! TAM TAM
~MORGAN~
~HEY JEFFREY~ I MUSS YOU COME HOME~LOVE MORGAN~
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Nubby
Jeffrey, softball season has started! It’s cold and that’s why I think of you… while I drink my hot chocolate I thin that you would have been doing the same thing! No matter what I do you are always on my mind and I never quit thinking about you! It’s storming outside…I wish I knew whether you were safe and dry. PLEASE COME HOME ---Jiro really needs you right now!
Destiny
Jeffrey, If I ever wanted to know what love is I would look to your mom for the answer! I have never known a mother who had as much love in her heart like the love your mom has for you. I saw her Sunday while I was riding my 4-wheeler she was looking for you in her car. I believe that someday she will find you if it takes the rest of her life! PLEASE COME HOME JEFFREY --- SHE REALLY NEEDS YOU!
Destiny
Jeffrey, Cory got saved! He is going to be baptized at church on Sunday! I know that you are proud, wish you were here to share it with us all.
Amber Peters
Jeffrey, Hey, you know, I set here for a long time trying to get the nerve to write something, that wouldn’t make me cry. I miss you, and your family misses you more than words can say. I feel for all your family, but then again, I feel for your friends too, because I know how they feel. Wherever you are at, I hope you can hear, or at lease feel our pain, so that you can see how much everyone loves you and misses you. I just want to see you again, for you to make me laugh. The one thing that hurts me so bad, is to see Destiny. I remember one night, not very long after you vanished, Destiny, Charity, and me went bowling. And for some reason we started talking about you and Destiny bawled, I felt so sorry for her, so I held her, I tried to tell her that everything would be ok, but for some reason, she didn’t believe me. To see her hurt like that made me crumble inside. Now all it takes is seeing one of your pictures, or see someone in your family, then I break down and cry, and talk to you as if you can hear me, I wish you could. Please Jeffrey, come home to your mom, dad sister, and brothers, to all those that yearn to hold you and see you, and come home to me and your other friends that yearn to see you smile again. Love always, Amber
Morgan,
Hey Jeffrey I met your cousin today, he looked just like you when I looked at him I saw you, he is going to your mom’s house. I miss you, your mom misses you and is worried. Please call if you find Jeffrey, he is a good boy and Linda is worried about him. Come home Jeffrey. Love always Morgan
Destiny,
Jeffrey, It’s spring break and it’s so boring here in the HUGE town of Clayton! You’ll never guess what I did… I won 2 games of pool! I think that I am getting better! I hope cause I am really bad! Hey when you come back you can teach me how to play pool! What do you say? PLEAE COME HOME! Much Love!
Jeffrey, I made this poem just for you!
Things that used to be sunny and bright are now beginning to fade. The brightest shades of yellow are suddenly turning to the darkest grays, Somehow I know you are so involved in this color changing world because you were once our sun and now your gone so it’s turning into a dark cruel world, The universe sees colder I think the planets may be moving in, And last night while looking at the stars another blew out again, I wonder where you’ve gone to and why you’ve gone astray and I know someone has the answer and they will surely pay, So please come back to me andmake my world bright again because without you life is cold, dark, and way to dim!!!
Love you Bunches!!
mom
Son, I am in Clayton today. The drive here is getting harder and harder for me.
It hits me about 10 miles out of Antlers and the tears start and the hurt is
almost more than I can bear. It is gut-wrenching. Then a calm overtakes me and I
am determined more than ever to find you. This is one mystery that WILL NOT go
unsolved! You are too important and special to too many people. I love you
beyond anything words can convey. I am driving your sister crazy because I
cannot get you off my mind and talk about you constantly--I want everyone to be
as driven as I am to find you. Your uncles Thed and Puff are my heroes. They are
as driven and I know have done everything short of killing someone to find out
what happened to you. I have a few friends that have been there throughout this
entire ordeal and are also driven to find you son. We will not let time or
anything else stop us. With God's help we WILL find you!!!
<mailto:>- 1015357493
Sheila Allen
Hi Jeffrey. It's the 1st of March and you are still not home, I can't believe
it's been this long. You need to come home, ASAP! Kristina will be getting
married the 1st of June Jeffrey, we would love nothing more than to have you
there to share it with. Even though people go about their daily lives and do
what they need to do, we still remember you and think about you all the time and
wonder where you are. You are in our thoughts constantly and how could we forget
about you anyway? You are family, someone we love and miss more and more
everyday. Somebody may have took your presence from our lives, but your memory
and how much we love you will always be there, they will never take that away.
<mailto:>- 1015002748
mom
Hi Son, I am very angry today. I am angry that you are not here. I am angry that
I cannot find you. I am angry that I let you move to Clayton. I am angry that
the ones I trusted to take care of you didn't. I am angry that 13 months have
passed and the ones I thought loved you most and would do everything in their
power to find you have not done everything in their power to find you. I am
angry that I can't see you, I am angry that I can't touch you. I am angry
because I know with all my heart that if you could be here you would be. I am
angry because SOMEONE is responsible for you not being here and they are living
their life without a thought for the people they have hurt. Even if you are
alive Jeffrey I know you would be here if you could be. I watch as your sister
stares into space and nothing seems to make her happy. I am angry that Blake's
idol has been taken away from him. I am angry that Mark is angry with you
because he hears me cry all the time and knows it is because of what has
happened to you and he says "please moma don't cry over Jeffrey". I am
angry because the holidays will never the same without you. I am so angry and
soooo sad because a hole has been ripped in my heart and there is nothing I can
do to keep you off my mind. I pray that God will forgive me for wishing that
anyone responsible for hurting you would not exist anymore and he would help me
not to have those thoughts. Jeffrey, I love you so much. It is almost unbearable
at times. It is so hard to go on with life because life does not have the
meaning it used to have anymore. It is not the happy, safe world that I thought
it was. I know you thought it was too, son and I am so sorry that I didn't warn
you about the evil, but I honestly did not think that anyone in Clayton would
ever hurt you. I, like you trusted everyone but not anymore. I am afraid to let
Lisa go by herself to see her dad because I don't want anything to happen to her
as she goes through Clayton. Life should not be this way. I get so afraid son
and I have to pray and pray to overcome it. God has given me tremendous strength
and emotional stability and I will use that to do everything in my power to find
you and if anyone hurt you to make sure they DO NOT go unpunished. You are
always on my mind son and since I have written this I am not so angry anymore
because God blessed me so much to have you in my life. Even my memories are
better than nothing at all.
<mailto:>- 1014931907
Jennifer (Pugh) Sisk
Jeffrey...I can't count the times I have been here, not a day goes by that I
don't think about you and wonder where you are and what you are doing, And I
will continue thinking about you until you are in your mom and dad's arms! WE
MISS YOUR BIG SMILE COME HOME JEFFREY!!!
jensisk@hotmail.com <mailto:jensisk@hotmail.com>
- 1014799247
Uncle Puff & Aunt Jackie
Jeffrey, As we drive cross country, from east to west, form north to south, we
keep wondering why people are staring at us. Some look sad at us and others are
holding thier hearts, then it finally dawns on us that they are looking at your
picture that we have on our trucks. Your Mom bought those signs so we can go
cross country showing your picture to everyone. We are all hoping this will jog
someone's memory or maybe someone will remember something or has seen you. We
don't know how many times we've look at a hitchiker hoping and praying that it's
you, and we can bring you home and give your Mom and family the best present
they have ever had! Maybe our prays will be answered soon. We love you and miss
you!
jackiefay@hotmail.com <mailto:jackiefay@hotmail.com>
- 1014786477
Destiny
Jeffrey, I think people should write to you more often! It's like they forget,
but I wonder how that's possible. I have been thinking about you A LOT lately.
Every time I look at Preston I see you at first! It scares me, but in away I
love it cause it's like I still have you here with me--I wonder if I am the only
one who thinks that way--! I think about you all the time! It's like you occupy
my mind at times! In class, it looks like I'm listening, but really I'M NOT! I
am thinking about you and where you could be. I want to be Shelock Holmes and
SOLVE THE BIG MYSTERY. What I wouldn't give to have you back here! It's funny
but at night I want to lay under the stars forever just because I know that you
may be looking at the same one I am, and I think that maybe if we wished on the
same one at the same time you would be back here! DO YOU THINK IT COULD HAPPEN?
I HAVE FAITH! I wonder if we will ever know where you are and what exactly
happened but I refuse to quit searching! DON'T YOU FEEL SPECIAL KNOWING YOU MEAN
THAT MUCH TO ME?!? I would if I were you (ha!ha!) Bunches of hugs!!!
Destiny <mailto:Destiny> - 1014704894
Destiny
Jeffrey, GUESS WHAT? Our boys are going to state! I know that it would make the
occasion double special if you were there to watch--(if you have noticed I am
trying to bribe you to come home!) Where ever you are know that I am thinking of
you bunches! Love you ALWAYS!
Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com <mailto:Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com>
- 1014538654
morgangrammer
hey jeffrey i miss you come home your mom is wared please come home your in my
prairs
morgangrammer <mailto:morgangrammer> -
1014493670
morgangrammer
hey jeffrey i miss you come home your mom is wared pleas come home your in my
prairs
morgangrammer <mailto:morgangrammer> -
1014493645
<HALLIE>
morgangrammer
hey jeffrey i miss you come home i thank about you all the time in class at home
and in my heart god is in your heart your mom miss you alot and you sister i
miss you alot i will right back aways love morgangrammer
morgangrammer <mailto:morgangrammer> -
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Lisa
Hey Jeff,
I'm home for 2 months. Blake is already 8! Can you believe that? He needs you
to come home and show him how to do Math because he missed 14!! You know how
you're so smart in Math! I miss you lots. Things are a lot darker without
you...you were so full of life. I could use your smile around. Writing another
book - I pulled out my old book that I finished 4 years ago (113 pages) and it
made me think about you a lot. I wish you were here...my life now seems like
it's entirely abyssmal and vaccumous - I'll give you time to look up those words
Bub - kidding. The days pass and I wonder if you'll ever come back.
<mailto:>- 1014347051
morgan
hey jeffrey-i dont know you but i know your mother and brothers.please come home
your mother needs you and your sister and brothers i miss you awayslove
MORGANGRAMMER
morgangrammer <mailto:morgangrammer> -
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me
Jeffrey, Hey hows it goin' just sittin' here thinkin' bout you and wondering
when you were goin' to come home you got so many friends and family that love
you and miss you. We just want you to home home to us. Please come home soon!!!
<mailto:>- 1014018258
Shelly Ben
Hey GoodLookin' I took you some Valentine's to the tree and the sign in town the
other Day. I went back to the tree today your Mom and Granny Ben and Ellen had
also brought you stuff. We all want you to "Be our Valentine" hehe We
all miss you so much. I am finding myself going there more and more. I guess I
hope to find you there or find something that will help us understand what has
happened to you and what can bring you back to us. I have dreamed you came home
a few times in the last weeks. Just walked up in my yard and smiled and and came
in and hugged me like you had never been missing. What I would give to have that
dream come true. Bub you can't imagin how many people pray for you to come home
everyday , several times a day. It seems to me everyone has heard of JEFFREY BEN
and is praying for you. Please come home to us. It is like a big chunk of our
heart has been ripped out. We miss you SO much!! We love you more than any words
can say! I love you! Love sis
sisnraf@hotmail.com <mailto:sisnraf@hotmail.com>
- 1013841627
Destiny
Jeffrey, I catch myself somedays just sitting in class trying to put the pieces
to your disapperance together. I try and make deals with God asking him to just
bring you home! Like your sister my wishes are only for you and about you. When
I see a star at night and I get to make a wish on the very first (WITHOUT FAIL)
I will make every wish just for you. Before EVERY basketball game I make a wish
on a star on the flag and those wishes also are for you. Every time I have an
excuse to make a wish it's truely for you. I know already that when I blow my
candles out this year for my birthday they also will be FOR YOU! I want you to
know that you are continuely on my mind (like so many other people's). You are
truely a very special person and I know that where ever you are you are under
the same sky I am and you may also be wishing on MY STAR!!!
Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com <mailto:Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com>
- 1013816638
Kristina
Happy Valentines Day Bubba!!!! Wish I could tell you that in person...I miss
you! Im still praying......I love you!
From Kristina and Kayli
covergirl92@hotmail.com <mailto:covergirl92@hotmail.com>
- 1013797212
MOM (Linda Miller)
Happy Valentines Day son. I wish you were here! I can't stand it without you.
Why has this happened? I don't understand-WHY, WHY, WHY? You are the most
beautiful, perfect son in the world? WHERE ARE YOU?!!! Please someone, tell
me!!! I got Mark and Blake a valentines "TY" beanie baby and got Lisa
a pretty card. I got you one too son and hung it on 9-pine road. Son, I miss you
so much, I can't express it in words. I need you son. Wherever you are son-I
love you with my entire heart and soul. I will find you son-someday, somehow
with God's help I WILL FIND YOU. You are always on my mind. Blakes favorite son
that remind him of you is "not a day goes by" by lonestar. It is
beautiful and we listen to it all the time. We love you son!!!
<mailto:>- 1013709451
Kristina
hey bubba!! I know its been awhile since I have wrote you, been a little busy
here lately, feeling out college stuff and things to scholarships for college. I
miss you so much bubba, I went to your candle light vigil and it was hard to
just sit there and watch the video that they made for you, I wanted to scream..
Me and charity went to the wreck site after the vigil was over and all the way
over there and all the way back, you were all we talked about, me and her both
miss you so much, and was sharing all those great memories that we had together
with you. we both could not believe that it had been already a year and still no
trace of you or anything, jeffrey no one can just disappear off the face of the
earth and no one know anything about it, and especially here in clayton its just
not right, for this town to hush up about something like this,when usally they
talk and talk and talk, but all I know is that god knows what happened to you
and he knows who done this to you and they will suffer the consequences when the
day comes. but until then the whole family misses you still and always and no
matter how many times we say it or write it down, I will never ever forget you,
your always in my heart, forever and always. I LOVE YOU BUBBA!!! forever.....
Love Kristina
covergirl92@hotmail.com <mailto:covergirl92@hotmail.com>
- 1013549428
AT
Hi Jeffrey, Its been a year since you left us. Where are you? Why can't you come
home to us? I miss you more than ever. I think about you day and night, you are
my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night. I wish I could see
you, I wish I could be on the receiving end of one of your HUGE hugs, see that
big smile one more time. One More Day, thats one of the songs they played at
your vigil, I think thats how everyone feels, if we only had one more day, what
would we all do differently? I know what I would do. I see your Mom and I see
how this has affected her, I wish she would find out something. I wish you could
walk up to her right now and end all this hell she has been through this last
year. Time will tell Jeffrey, it will tell us where you have been and what
happened on that fateful night last year. Guilt will eat away at the person or
persons who knows what happened, they will have to come forth someday. But when
will that day be? It's been a year already thats too long for someone to have to
go through what your mom and sister is having to go through. I miss you
Jeffrey...I love you.
<mailto:>- 1012807985
Lisa (Sissy)
Jeff, The strangest feeling occurred on between 11pm on Jan 28th and 1am on Jan
29th....At 11pm I looked at my watch (I didn't have a white candle but I had a
patchouli one which I actuall took from mom- go figure as you would say
"You big hippie" - hey whatever works, right?)..At any rate, 11pm I
was thinking that you were possibly well and doing your thing...midnight I
wasn't sure...at 1am I knew you were probably into the realm of what we know as
"Jeffrey Missing" a year ago. I felt helpless as I have for a few days
over a year. When the time hit after midnight I wanted to change it back so bad.
I wanted it to remain a time when you were alive and well and smiling your huge
Ben smile...ha...I wish you could see this pic of me that I took here (New York)
you would laugh at my cheesing it.
I'm sorry I couldn't be at the vigil (you know me I am always in some big city somewhere with no money being nomadic - look the word up later bub - ha). I really miss you. I remember the last time I saw you at least a million times a day in my head. I remember the last time you called me...actually this year I looked at my watch on that day and said, "This time last year my brother and I were arguing about Western Union."
Every time I complete something that I am proud of I think of you...you always have believed in me and what I was doing. I believe in you too Jeffrey - I alwats have.
I wish things could have been different and it would be me instead of you missing...the old saying, "You never know what you have until it's gone" holds true...I remember the last time I talked to you...I got a weird feeling but I distinctly remember crying because I knew that you loved me more than any woman ever (besides mom) and I felt in my heart this overwhelming love for you...I feel it even now. I love you bubba....after all I prayed for you for 5 years before I got you.
L
halfacup@halfacupentertainment.com <mailto:halfacup@halfacupentertainment.com>
- 1012771423
Billiejean
Dear Jeffery, Linda and kids, I breaks my heart everyday to think of the pain
and sorrow you all live with. I know how important it is for you to find the
truth, and you will, I know this as surly as I know tomorrow will come. We can
never run from evil, nor can evil hide forever. The truth will come. It is never
easy waiting for the answers,but you will have them. God watches over us all and
give us the strength to move ahead, he is working and he is with you. I will say
with conviction that those involved will be punished beyond all measure, all
those who have kept quiet, all those who have hid the truth, will not see a day
of rest or a day of peace, but you the one's that have loved Jeffery and kept
his memory alive will have the peace you long for and the truth to allow you to
carry on. We love you. I have printed out Jefferys photo, and placed it in a
frame, so even here he will be in our hearts and in out thoughts everyday until
he is home. Kelly, chris and I will pray for you everyday . Keep talking to
Jeffery as we will...
<mailto:>- 1012684294
Kelly Parker
Hey Jeffery- You don't know who I am and you've never met me, but our moms met
on Montel. You have a lot of people who love, and care about you, and you've
impacted a lot of peoples lives in good ways. I hope everything goes well.
confus2u@yahoo.com <mailto:confus2u@yahoo.com>
- 1012589048
Sheila Allen
Jeffrey, I drove into Clayton the evening of the 29th and started seeing yellow
ribbons before I got to the rodeo grounds and then I got into town and there was
yellow ribbons for you EVERYWHERE! Your mom and family is so devoted in finding
you. Your mom will not rest until she finds out where you are. Your mothers love
will bring you home, her heart will never rest with part of it missing. There is
no greater love than the love that holds on where there seems nothing left to
hold on to. {Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things,
endures all things. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:7,8 NKJV}
<mailto:>- 1012504843
Michelle Hodges
Jeffrey, Not really sure what to say, I'ts been a year and I couldn't be there
with your mom but, I was with her in HEART. I Lit a candle and went outside n my
back porch in Tyler, Texas and prayed for you, your mom, all your family and the
god forsaken ?!!???? that is responsible for your missing. I wish that whoever
it may be that they would just think about your mom, family and friends that
miss you so badly and would not be cowards. PLEASE come forward !!!!!!!!!!! I
know someone knows where JEFFREY is, THINK about if it were of your children
missing, NO you could not even know what Linda is going through. Please come
forward and give this precious, BEAUTIFUL, mother some life again and STOP this
pain. Jeffrey, we LOVE and MISS YOU .
misthodges@hotmail.com <mailto:misthodges@hotmail.com>
- 1012458266
Shelly Ben
Hey JEFFREY BEN! We went to your Candel light service last night then we went to
the tree afterwards. Jeffrey you would be so proud. It was so nice. Everyone
misses you and wants you home so BAD. Dad and Shannon Made you a VERY Nice sign
and put up at the tree. You will love it. We put hundreds of yellow ribbons out
all over town. Made buttons with your beautiful face on them. Your mom said you
would be so proud. We are all proud of you and always have been. Bubba we need
you home. Your Mom and Dad need to hear from you. Please let us know something.
We are all praying for you every hours for everyday you are on our minds and in
our hearts. We love and miss you more than words can every say. I am waiting for
a smile and hug form you.. Love Always Sis
sisnraf@hotmail.com <mailto:sisnraf@hotmail.com>
- 1012449953
Mellissa Matthews
Jeffrey- I don't really know how to begin this...there's so much to say but none
of the words really seem right. Last night I went to church and prayed for you
and light candles for your safe return. I'm going to school in Durant, so I
couldn't make the candle light vigil in Clayton so I had one of my own for you.
I can't believe its been a year. I miss you so much and am very worried about
you. I haven't seen you much since high school, but know that I will never
forget about you. Not ever!! I remember you as a 7th grader when I was in 8th.
We were close then. But later you moved to Clayton, and I missed you a lot. I
don't think I ever really told you how much. I still saw you at ballgames and in
town on weekends. Every time I saw you it was like we had been hanging out
together for weeks. No long silences when the two of us were together. Maybe
because we both really like to talk. Ha ha. I remember and miss lots of things
about you, but like everyone else it was your smiles and hugs I loved the best,
and the way you were with Blake. I was thinking yesterday about seeing you in
town one Saturday night a few years ago. You and Blake were cruising. That's
what you told me. You said Blake wanted to go with you and you couldn’t' tell
him no. Not many 17 or 18 year olds would let their little brother
"cruise" town with him. You love Blake and the rest of your friends
and family. Know that I and many others love and miss you. Come home Jeffrey. My
prayers are with you and your family. Love Always- Mellissa Matthews
Mellissa3m@hotmail.com <mailto:Mellissa3m@hotmail.com>
- 1012431095
MOM (linda miller)
Son, it is 11:30 pm-Jan. 29th and I just got home from the candlight prayer
vigil at Clayton. We had it on main st. in front of your big sign. There was
alot of people there to remember you. We prayed and then watched your video. I
don't think there was a dry eye on the place. Son, where are you? I can't
believe a year has past and I still can't find you. It seems like time stood
still 1-29-01 and it is still standing still. It is like life can't really
resume until we find you. Son, I love you more life itself. I miss you so much
it hurts. Everyone loves you so much and tonight they expressed that love.
Yellow ribbons lined main street of Clayton. I pray unceasingly Jeffrey that God
will bring you back to us. I miss your smile, your hugs, your smell-EVERYTHING
about you. I don't know what else to do son-please tell me what else to do-I
know you would be here if you could be. I pray I will see you soon. All my love
I send to you my precious, precious son.
<mailto:>- 1012376655
cowgirl <we all care and never forget such a kind guy and a wonderful family>
Lois Boostrom
I have been watching Clayton Today for news of Jeffrey's homecoming. Hope it's
very soon. I can't imagine how you feel, not knowing where he is. God bless
Jeffrey and all his loved ones. I live in Sun City, Arizona
loisboo@prodigy.net <mailto:loisboo@prodigy.net>
- 1011919710
Nubby
Jeffrey, I'm still praying for you every day! I know that you are out there and
I will not give up looking until we find you!
Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com <mailto:Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com>
- 1010459765
Lisa (sissy)
Jeff:
I miss you. This month is the worst month in the entire world because it
marks the month in which you were ripped out of our lives. Mother, Dad, and I
are desperately waiting for you to call, write, laugh, or breathe the same air
as us. I hope you're not cold. It's really cold lately. I hope you're okay and I
miss you a lot. I love you bubba
<mailto:>- 1010020423
Teena Welker
Jeffrey...Today is January 1, 2002. It's been nearly a year since you've been
gone. There is not an hour in each and every day of mine that I do not think
about you, wonder where you are and what happened to you. I now live in Divide,
close to your Granny Ben. I talk to her just about every day, she misses you
Jeffrey so much. I love you Jeffrey so much, I miss you. Cory misses you also,
just last night Dawn brought him over to see Trey, and she had chapstick, Cory
said "Mom, Jeffrey had that same chapstick." Little things like that
you would think he would not remember, but he does. I was looking through some
papers the other day and found a birthday card you made for Bethany. Well...I
guess I'll go now...Love you Jeffrey...Teena
<mailto:>- 1009956341
Mom
Jeffrey, do you remember Myrtle Beasley from Antlers. She wrote me this
beautiful poem about you. I hear so many negative rumors that this poem filled
my heart with hope.
"Mom I'll be back" Mom, I have gone not far away, soon I'll be
coming home to stay. Now I'm doing alright, God watches over me day and night. I
left-didn't want to go but things happen you know. Now mom I love you more each
day thats true. But some things you have to do. So pray for me, I'll pray too.
Soon I'll be coming home to you. Pray for me day and night. Soon we'll win the
fight. The rose has many a thorn. Our family was sadly torn. A road is long that
has no end. Some day our troubles will end. Tell my family hi, I miss them so.
Let them pray, but keep having faith and go-go-go. Time goes slow when things go
wrong, but God says take it easy, pray and sing a song. My friends all pray for
me that's true. Guess that is all we can do. So mom pray and be patient, wait
for me. I'll see you, wait and see."
<mailto:>- 1009816064
Crystal Russell
Jeffrey, Christmas without you was terribly sad. At Granny Maria's house, we
watched a video of you made by your precious cousin Misty Erwin. A gift of
remembrance to your mother, that brought us all to tears. My mothers' Christmas
dinner prayer, was barely spoken because of the tears of grief that could not be
held back. Then again at my Granny Wanda's house, we bowed our heads as OUR Aunt
Linda Smith prayed for you & your mom & dad. She then left the room in
tears of grief for you. All families are searching & praying & hurting
for you so much! I know God hears our prayers & that somehow you do to. WE
LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH! You're in my heart & mind always. I know that you
remember that you are my "protector". How much you mean to me.....I
hope to tell you in person soon!! Still hoping.
crystal@vitalsignco.com <mailto:crystal@vitalsignco.com>
- 1009398463
Destiny
Jeffrey, I wish with all my might that you were here to come to Granny Mable's
to eat her famous Home Cookling just like you used to! We talk about you all the
time and we all miss you more than we could ever say! Cory loves you and needs
you to look up to so if you are out there and can read this please please come
home!
Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com <mailto:Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com>
- 1009321719
Lisa
I didn't forget: I love you!
<mailto:>- 1009313488
Lisa (sissy)
Hey bub:
Merry Christmas. My Christmas sucks. I miss you so much today. I have shared 18 Christmas' with you, and the 19th has been lost somewhere and somehow. I remember everything about you. everyday in every way and I wonder how you are and if you're cold. I can't bring you a blanket if you're cold.
We're (mom and I) are going out to be with you as the only way we know how...searching desperately for some trace of you.
I turned 24 and I was driving back from California to Oklahoma and I was terribly sad and angry. I know in my heart that you were thinking about me and wishing me a happy birthday even though it's not too happy.
You would have come home from college and I would have come home from the music world...we would have shared some banter and then we would have tried to outweigh each other with intelligence. Of course we know I would have won, but you put up a good fight! ha.
As I sit here during the most memorable Christmas ever (without you)....my mind is flooded with anger toward certain individuals that I know in my heart to be evil spirits. I try to keep my composure intact, but often times I am dying a rageful death inside....too often. I am completely out of touch with my surroundings and I just need to know you're safe and okay and that you know how much we love you.
We still fall asleep under the same sky, bubba.
We're taking the x-mas tree down already because we will never celebrate Christmas again like we used to - it just doesn't mean anything anymore.
Dad is in Dallas and in oblivion as he has always been kept since the early 90s....you know that! Just wanted to drop you a few lines and tell you that I already have a wish ready for everything (birthday candles, shooting stars, and penny fountains)...it revolves around you.
You're in everything I do...
Lisa
<mailto:>- 1009313450
Linda Miller (MOM)
Hi my precious son. Today is Christmas-how can we celebrate it the way we should
without you? Our family circle has been broken and Christmas is just not the
same this year. Vince Gill has a song by this title and it is so sad. Son, I
pray you are somewhere alive and God will give you the ability to get home. I
pray that if anyone out there has knowledge of what happened to you that they
cannot have a moments rest until they tell us, that their every waking moment is
misery. I pray that if anyone out there hurt you that the Lord our God will
bring them to their knees and they will receive the justice they deserve! Son, I
can't believe this horrible nightmare-I never dreamt 12-27-00 that I would not
see you again and this would happen. Son, you are in my heart, in my mind, and
in my thoughts every waking minute of every day. I love you more than words can
say, I miss you more than you will ever know. The little boys are celebrating
with David's family today. Lisa and I felt like going to the tree on 9-pine road
to see if God would give us any answers and hopefully feel closer to you. I will
never give up hope and I will continue to search for you son. I will continue to
pray daily that God will bring you home to me, until my dying day or until he
answers my prayer. Merry Christmas, my beautiful, precious son. I LOVE YOU!!!
<mailto:>- 1009312030
Rodney, Sheila, Kristina and Kayli Allen
Merry Christmas Jeffrey! We love and miss you very much and wish more than
anything that you were here.
sunseteve65@hotmail.com <mailto:sunseteve65@hotmail.com>
- 1009213200
Janice Webster
Jeffery, I sure miss you alot. I'll never forget you comming to see Amanda every
time she was in the hospital. Amanda adored you!!! The last time I saw you was a
KC foods and you hugged my neck. I will never forget you. Jan
websterclan@pisp.net <mailto:websterclan@pisp.net>
- 1007672213
Danette Heflin
Jeffrey - I have opened your web page numerous times and felt that I could never
do justice for you by what I would start to write. I still feel that I can't,
but I do want you to know just as the rest of your family and friends, I think
of you all of the time. I hope and I pray that we will see you or know where you
are soon. I don't know how much more mom can take, or anyone for that matter. We
all want so much to help her, but what can we do? I wrote this poem, Jeffrey, a
long time ago. But until now, even I didn't really know what I was trying to
say. You are Oh Peaceful Night, and none of us will have it again until we find
you.
Oh Peaceful Night - Do you exist or are you a dream for your so few and far between Oh Peaceful Night. I pray you will come and rescue me for so long sadness is all I've seen, come don't visit, stay with me Oh Peaceful Night. I've searched for you so very long, I search no more, I searched all wrong for you will come in your own time Oh Peaceful Night. So I await that most glorious day when you will come and forever stay, I will love and appreciate Oh Peaceful Night. We love and miss you Jeffrey. Love, Danette
danette@pisp.net <mailto:danette@pisp.net>
- 1007670114
Sheila Allen
Hi Jeffrey, it's been two months sence I have posted, not a day goes by that you
are not in my thoughts. I check this web site EVERY day. The holidays are going
by so fast and January will be here before we know it. I just wish you could be
home for christmas, a hug from you would be the best christmas presant I could
get this year, that would be sooo great! My heart aches at the thought of you
not being here, the holidays will not be the same without you. Your family needs
you home so bad, it's beyond words. I just hope that where ever you are Jeffrey,
that you are safe, warm and happy and that you know that you are loved and
missed dearly by all.
sunseteve65@hotmail.com <mailto:sunseteve65@hotmail.com>
- 1007224603
Lisa (Sissy)
Hey my little bro -
Dec 1st it is today. Current events: George Harrison (The Beatles) died yesterday. I went to "ground zero" and plan on going again today to take some black & white's of it, and of the miles of banners, candles, missing posters, and sentiments I stood there looking at the tallest buildings in the world in a pile burning with tourists snapping photographs and local merchants making money off of it. As I stood there watching this insanity and the masses with tears in their eyes I wondered if you knew what was going on and if the very moment I was thinking about you if you were thinking about me. It's strange because although I have two other brothers - you were the one that was my best friend growing up and the one that didn't let those (w.t) individuals talk shit about me because I was your sister. When I needed someone you where there even though at times we were hundreds or thousand of miles apart. We have 19 years of memories shared, you know? Where ever you are and whatever happened to you I want you to know that I'm doing okay and thanks for believing in me when no one else did. I know you worried about me and that my issues with various things affected you just as it affected me, and I wish you were here to know that I don't have any issues anymore and to see everything (at least my dreams for my career) working out perfectly thus far because you would simply say, "I told you so."
I want to spend time with you - I miss you. I miss your obsessive calling and our constant bickering to each other.
As I sit here and type this not knowing where or what happened to you, I think about being 13 (you were 8) and the time we accidentally sprayed pepper spray in our eyes - okay fine! I sprayed the pepper spray in our eyes. Even though it hurt more than anything - afterward - you didn't hate me and we laughed (not for a few days of course) but thank you for being in my life and you're part of my lifeline.....Mom, Dad, Mark, Blake, You, and me....our lifeline. Well, it's shorter now and it feels like (a lot of times) that someone punched you in the stomach.
I promise you Jeff - we will find the bastards (if someone hurt you) and regardless of who it is we will make sure they suffer tremendously for taking a part of our lifeline away....our thoughts our one and when I look up at the sky I still meet you there....
Love you bro, L
halfacup@prodigy.net <mailto:halfacup@prodigy.net>
- 1007218740
Crystal Russell
Dearest Jethro: This Thanksgiving was spent at my moma's (aunt glenda's) and the
topic of conversation continued through out the day, returning to one thing:
"WHERE IS OUR BOY ?". First your mother, then your granny, then your
aunts, uncles & cousins. WE ARE HURTING & searching hills & valleys
& rivers. Putting your photo anywhere & everywhere it might get noticed.
Etching your face into the minds of anyone who will see. OUR HEARTS ACHE &
OUR SOULS SEARCH FOR ANSWERS. When will this nightmare be over? WHEN WILL GOD
BRING YOU HOME? Only then will it truly be THANKSGIVING !! We continue to pray
daily for you & love you more than words can say!!!!!!! Love, Crystal
crystal@vitalsignco.com <mailto:crystal@vitalsignco.com>
- 1006821153
tamoliestamps
JEFFERY(BUBBA),THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE NOW, AND WE ARE STILL HURTING SO BAD
BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT WITH US. I'M JUST THINKING OF ALL THE FOOD I WILL BE
PREPARING TONIGHT FOR THANKSGIVING TOMMOROW, AND REMEMBERING HOW ALL YOU BIG
BOYS LOVE TO EAT. PRESTON SAID YOU WOULD ALWAYS MAKE HIM GO DOWNSTAIRS TO FIX
YALL SOMETHING TO EAT,BUT HE DIDN'T MIND BECAUSE YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN LIKE A BIG
BROTHER TO HIM. HE MISSES YOU SO BAD TOO! I WISH THAT YOU WERE HERE TO HELP HIM
THROUGH SOME TRYING "TEENAGE STUFF". HE ASK ABOUT YOU ALMOST EVERYDAY,
AND EVEN WHEN HE DON'T, I KNOW THAT HE IS STILL THINKING ABOUT YOU AND PRAYING
FOR YOU. HAPPY THANKSGIVING BUBBA! WHEREVER YOU ARE.LOVE YOU.
<mailto:>- 1006388390
Linda Miller (Mom)
My precious son, it is the day before Thanksgiving and we are facing the
holidays without you. I cannot think of a greater Christmas gift than to have
you call or come home. I cannot describe the grief and pain of having you
removed from our lives for the past 10 months. The numerous emotions of fear and
anger. The desperation of looking everywhere to find you and the feelings of
disappointment and helplessness when we fail. The sleepless nights of worry,
crying, fearing the worst but praying for the best. The darkness that threatened
to engulf me when I felt I couldn't go another step and then my sweet Jesus
would take my hand and pull me back into the light and he would promise me to
take care of this situation, through his word: Mark 4:22 All that is now hidden
will someday come to light....why were you so fearful? Do you not yet have
confidence it me? and he would give me the strength to go through another day. I
long to hold you in my arms and never let you go--tolook into your eyes and tell
you "moma will make everything Ok and never let anyone hurt you", to
see your beautiful smile and hear your wonderful voice-to feel that warm bear
hug that you are so known for. I would give my life to have this back. As I sit
and think about all the things I have to be thankful for-I thank God for saving
my soul-for giving me 4 beautiful children-I thank God for the love you and I
share and the wonderful memories I have. I thank God for taking care of
you-wherever you are. Son, "you are always on my mind".
<mailto:>- 1006372784
Sis Ben
Bubba I was just setting here thinking about you and thought I would tell you
again how much you are loved and missed. Please come home to us. Our family is
not complete without you and your wonderful laugh. We love you Sis
<mailto:>- 1005716335
Carrie and Charity L.
Jeffrey we think of you everyday. Everywhere we go we see signs and posters. We
miss your big smile that you kept on your face so much. To be part of your
family is a blessing. We pray for the day you come home to see everyone. We will
never ever forget all the fun times we had together. You and your memories are
in our hearts forever. We love you lots Jeffrey.
<mailto:>- 1005607773
Kellie Sharp
Jeffrey, Well when I heard the shocking news that you were gone it struck
straight to my heart. I have gone to school with you bascially my whole
high-school career, to hear that one of my former high-school friends just up
and vanished just really crushed me. I know I had not spoken to you for a while
due to moving on and away after school was out but still when someone you cared
about is in trouble it just hurts no matter how far apart you are. I think about
you all the time and just put the situation in Gods hands...... My prayers are
with you, and also with your family, May the peace of God keep you..............
kelliesharp@hotmail.com <mailto:kelliesharp@hotmail.com>
- 1005453545
Adam Cranford
Dear jeffrey I just wanted to tell you that me and josh miss you alot you were
our best friend when we first moved to clayton and i will never forget all the
fun times we have had i hope to have many more i miss hearing you yell out i
Jeffrey Ben and yelling loud enough so everyone would know who you are just
wanted to let you know i still have your puff daddy cd i listen to it every time
i think of you well got to go just wanted to tell you how much me and josh and
everybody misses you your friends always adam and josh cranford
<mailto:>- 1005435539
Dusty
Hey jethro I know I havent wrote you in a while but I just wanted to let you
know that I miss and love you very much. And I wish we could have some more fun
togethor.I donthave a whole lot of time right now but I love and miss you very
much your cousin Dusty
<mailto:>- 1005341780
Tammy Stamps
Hi Bubba.I was just getting ready to go to bed and I was thinking about what we
will be going through with Jerry and his surgery for the next few days,which
brought me to thinking of you,because when somebody you love hurts, it also
hurts us huh?. I was just thinking that as much as we will hurt with Jerry for a
while, it probably still wont compare with the hurt and pain that we are going
through everyday,not having you in our lives. I still hang on to the fact that
my god still performs miracles,such as making the blind see,the cripple walk,
and even raising the dead is not impossible with him. and I know that you
believe in that same god, so whereever you are cry out to him and he will hear
you because he loves you even more than your own parents,hard to believe huh?.
Bubba if you are in heaven, I know in my heart that I will see you again some
day,because this world is not my home, I'm just passing through. So if you are
out there,please call and come home soon, if not,see you in heaven. love and
prayers forever,tammy s.
<mailto:>- 1005033974
Kayli Bree Allen
I hope that you are o.k. Jeffrey. I like you. I love and miss you too. From
Kayli Bree Allen.
busybree@hotmail.com <mailto:busybree@hotmail.com>
- 1004763011
Brittni Mitchamore
Jeffrey, We love and miss you more than words can say. We hope that you are ok
and that you will come home soon. You are in our hearts and prayers every second
of every day. I think about all of the things we all used to do together. I miss
that. We all do. We love you. Come home soon.
brittni_dawn@hotmail.com <mailto:brittni_dawn@hotmail.com>
- 1004746806
Rhonda Green
I did not know jeffrey but I do know the crushing hurt when you lose someone you
love more than anything and I still feel that hurt to this day. And my heart
goes out to all his loved ones for the awful pain they are going through. People
need to stand together and put an end to the evil that is in this world today
and that is what needs to happen here. My heart goes out to all of you and may
god bless you soon with answers to this tragedy.
<mailto:>- 1004682150
Debbie Gregg
My Dearest Jeffrey Lee Ben, where in the world are you? We ask ourselves this
over and over, but noone asks theirselves as much as my sissy, your mother. She
looks and asks for you everyday. So please, if you are out there or someone out
there knows where you are please let us know something. I love you Jeffrey Lee
Ben. Your Aunt Debbie.
<mailto:>- 1004640744
Dana Fuller
Dear Jeffery:When I think of you it's not about you as you are today but as a
little boy in my Sunday school class. You were an onery little guy but thats Ok.
Just shows what spirit you have! Shows that you can be a fighter when you need
too. I pray for you and your family often because I too know what loss is about:
The feelings of hurt, anger, betrayl, but that all eventually changes as you
realize God in his infinite wisdom has had you in his hands all along! God says
that nothing, Nothing! can ever seperate us from him so I know that you are in
good hands where ever you are. Pray for your family ask God for mercy so that
they can have closure even though we know that we will eventualy see you again
some day they need to know where you are now! Remember Jeffery if you are still
this side of heaven there is nothing! nothing! that God chann't change or fix.
He made this world and everything in it (including You) If you have a problem he
can fix it! He is all powerful! And he loves YOU! If you can read this Jeffery
pick up a bible search for the truth. Beleive me it's in those sacread pages!
Remember although we as people are only human but God will always be there: The
bible says he sticks closer than a brother. God Bless and keep you Jeffery!
November 1st 2001 Dana Fuller and family
Danee67@hotmail.com <mailto:Danee67@hotmail.com>
- 1004631159
Aunt Ellen
To Bubba
I can't begin to tell you, how much we miss and love you. Every where i go i see and look for you. After awhile everyone begins to look like you. Hoping that one could be you, But no luck. As the days,weeks and now months have passed us on. As I pass through Clayton I can see your big smiling face and the wave of your hand as you drive down the street. Bubba, instead I see your picture on the billboard as I go through Clayton. Wondering "Where" "Oh Where Could He Be". Bubba you have touched many of hearts near and far away. I can still feel your big hug as you reach down with your long arms and smiling face. I know one day i will still get the "BIG" hug again. Bubba, I know someday,somewhere,someway we are going to find you. I will not give up until the day I'm gone. Hoping to find you first. Granny Ben and me always make a trip out to the wreck site every weekend. Hoping someone will give us a clue or any little hint. They will not be able to hide this forever. There is one person watching them and he knows what is happening. Everything hidden will be unfolded. We are praying for a answer soon. Sunday i watched the video of you. All i could do is cry thinking someone knows. The family circle is broken without you. Please call or even better come home to us all. Bubba, you are always in my heart. I think of you all the time. PLEASE, please come home. My heart is begging if anyone knows anything please let us know. You can't imagine what Jeffreys family has been through. Now it is TIME that something be revealed to his family. Please check your hearts out and let us know.
I LOVE YOU FOREVER BUBBA....
Love And Prayers Aunt Ellen
None <mailto:None> - 1004528899
Glenda Parks (aunt)
Jeffrey, your generation is the generation that the Lord is coming for his
people. All that satan has done to you and your family and friends, God will
turn it into good because he is a good God. There was a reason for your pretty
smile, to brighten the lives of others. God is the God of love and as you can
tell the community of Clayton and Antlers love and miss you. Your disappearance
has caused such an uproar. We were born for a reason and it was to serve and
worship God, because he gave his only begotten son for us to have life and live
it to its fullest. I have had several dreams and thoughts of where you might be.
All I can do is pray for you and our family. God has the answers to everything,
peace of mind, salvation, health, and prosperity. There is no hurt in heaven. My
favorite memory of you was everytime I saw you, you would say "hi Aunt
Glenda, I love you, Bye aunt Glenda. The Lord told me he would take care of you
and in his time all the truth would come out. I love you and miss you so much.
May God Bless you!
<mailto:>- 1003873626
Ruby Nagel
Hi Jeffery, I dont know you but I do know you are cousin to my sweet dear
daughter-in-law Shelly and second cousin to my precious granddaughters Marli
& McKinna. Your family & friends are waiting & looking for you. You
dont have to tell them where ever you are but at least give them a call (how
about from paybooth?) to let them know you are OK. They love you so much.
<mailto:>- 1003865650
Jeannie & Shorty Little, Andrea & Bonnie Daugherty
Jeffery, Your always in our heart and thoughts, hoping to see you soon. We are
here is you ever need us.
littlejl2000@yahoo.com <mailto:littlejl2000@yahoo.com>
- 1003701908
Granny Maria
my,dearestgrandson.with a heavy heart and lots of tears in my eayes with heavy
sleepless nights. i sit and wonder where you are or where you went.I MISS YOU
TERRIBLY, LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH I NEED TO CLOSE AS MY TEARS WILL BLOW
THIS MACHINE UP. COME HOME SOON YOUR GRANNY MARIA MONTANO,ERWIN,THURMAN IS
WAITING FOR YOU.
102101 <mailto:102101> - 1003699166
Uncle "Puff"
Hey Lil Buck! I don't know what direction you went, but your always on my road
map. I'm not going to come to a deadend, I will find the direction you went and
find out what happened to you. I'll do everything in my power to find you. You
will always be in our hearts. We love you and miss you very much. The roads will
connect soon! Love you, Uncle Puff & Aunt Jackie
102001 <mailto:102001> - 1003635883
Rodney Allen
Jeffrey, I don't know where to begin. I hope you are alive and well and can read
this someday. I hope you come back soon and if anyone has hurt you in any way I
hope and pray that they will pay one way or another. I wish I knew what I could
do to help find you, I think about you all the time, your big smile and pretty
teeth, your long arms that always reached around me and made me feel warm
inside. Jeffrey, I miss that feeling very much! I love you and miss you very
much. Love always, "Uncle" Rodney.
rlahotrod@hotmail.com <mailto:rlahotrod@hotmail.com>
- 1003508898
TARYN MILLER
JEFFREY, YOUR ARE A VERY SWEET PERSON AND I MISS YOU ANDYOUR SMILE VERY MUCH.YOU
USED TO BEAT ME UP ALL THE TIME AND I MISS THAT VERY MUCH.I LOVE AND MISS YOU
VERY MUCH!
<mailto:>- 1003361343
Lisa
Jeffrey, My heart hurts and I wonder if you remember our last conversation? I
knew you loved me. You know how you would call me like 4 times a day? I have
felt so guilty because the very last day you ever called me I took the first
call and you called me the next time and I watched as the caller Id displayed
your name and I watched it ring...not answering it...because I didn't want to be
disturbed and I knew you would always be here. Well, I would give my life to
have answered that last call. You didn't leave a message. I never told anyone. I
will never get over that guilt and I wanted to tell you that I am so sorry that
you needed me and I was too busy. I didn't want to disturb my life, but you know
something? It's more disturbed now than a person with multiple personality
disorder. I've never felt a heartbreak like this before. I just wanted to tell
you that I am sorry to have let you down and I know at night when I cry that
you're with me...I can feel it when I am at the lowest point. I love you
unconditionally bubba, and I would give my life to have you back here with
everyone that loves you. None of this should have happened to you...you are an
amazing person with a big heart - if anyone deserved it...it should have been me
because you are a far better person that I could ever be. Maybe you're at a
place where you can't be disappointed by all the things we were disappointed
by...but you left me here...and...I just want you back. We're still together
under the same sky...it keeps me warm to think about that. I love you and I hope
you are happy because above all....you changed so many people's life by yours
and I only wish I could have told you one last time....I love you bubba.
<mailto:>- 1003217249
Dusty
Dear Jeff I miss you allot and I wish I could see you again. I would give any
thing in the world to be with you for 5 minutes just so I could tell you how
much I love you. I rember all the good times we had togethor. I wish we could
have some more. I would love to jump on the trampalene until midnight or later.
I remember how we would ride the motorcycle up and down the rode all day. I
remember how we would stay up all night watching Steve Erkle until we both fell
asleep. Iremember how you would say lets pull an all nighter but you would
allway fall asleep and I would have to turn the t.v. off and go to sleep. I
remember alot of good times and I would love to have some more with you. I miss
you alot and I pray every night for you. And Ijust wanted to let you know how
much I love you. Mabe when this is all over I can tell you in person, I love and
miss you very much. Your Loving Cousein Dusty
<mailto:>- 1003018173
Blake Miller
Hi Bubba. I miss you. I love you. I pray for you every night. Please come home
now! I need you to play with me and show me everything I will need to know when
I grow up.
<mailto:>- 1002926407
Levie Allen
My dearest, sweet Jeffrey: With tears in my eyes I'll start this letter to you
telling you how much we miss you. I miss you bending way,way down and saying,
"Hi Aunt LuLu!" and putting your long, lanky arms around me and never
being embarrassed to do so, and I will cherish and will forever remember the hug
and red rose you gave me and your mom at a ballgame during halftime. I have
never experienced this kind of pain and grief before of not knowing where a
loved one is, but I assure you, the God I worship knows where you are and He
tells me, "I've not forgotten your prayers". Everyday we count the
minutes, hours, days and now it's turned into months and we cry out to God,
"We can't take it any more, and we compel Jesus to please bring you home to
a heart broken family, give us some answers please God, in the name of Jesus do
it TODAY", I put my faith in Him that He will do what is right in His time,
not ours. We went to church last night and your CA friends from the church put
on a play. It was good. I heard later that you got saved watching that same play
at Tuskahoma, I was proud to hear that. After the play at church, I again stood
in prayer for you, your mom, sister, brothers, family and friends that love you
so much. Sometimes I ask for peace in this situation but it never comes, it's
like your spirit is calling out to us from wherever you are to find you, and I
know I can't but Jesus can and will because He cares for us. I dreamed last
night you were hollering at me, "Aunt LuLu! Aunt LuLu!" and your eyes
were set on me and your arm raised as if you wanted me to throw you a ball, I
jumped out of bed and turned in circles and said, "Jeffrey! Where are you?
Where are you?". I awoke and stumbled to the floor in tears, grief and pain
because I then realized it was only a dream. My prayer again this morning is let
it be TODAY that we can ask Jeffrey, "Where were you?" and tell him
how much we missed him and love him and how our life has been so lonely without
him. Come home to us Jeffrey so we can be a united, whole family again. Our
circle is broken and we need a miracle to make it whole once more. Forever with
love, your Aunt LuLu-Levie.
We know Jeffrey loved his family too much to just leave, so I compel, BEG you
who knows to tell us where Jeffrey is. Tell it to us before you have to tell it
to God, because all things that are hidden will come to light.
<mailto:>- 1002907557
Lisa
Hey Bub,
Check it out: I finally got Half-A-Cup Entertainment incorporated with the
state of Oklahoma - my first real company that I own. If you come back
(inserting bribery) I'll give you 10 shares. One day like you said it'll be
worth a ton! Anyhow, wanted to share this with you. I miss you a lot, and I am
still waiting for your 4 phone calls a day and my telling you not to tell mom
and you telling her and telling her not to tell me. ha. You're funny! Thanks
about all the good things you knew how to say to make me feel that life was
worth living. In early jan you really made me see the grand scheme of things
with the things you did for me and said to me to make me feel better and I
appreciate that - I never got the opportunity to tell you though because you
were gone before I made it to you so I hope that somehow you know all that I
should have said and want to say now. I love you.
halfacup@prodigy.net <mailto:halfacup@prodigy.net>
- 1002738412
hollis simpson
Hey Jeffrey, the only memories that we have together are when you were a baby. I
remember carrying you around, you were the baby that made me realize how much I
wanted to have kids of my own. You were the cutest little thing. I remember how
much you dads chest would swell up with pride when he would look at you and your
moms eyes would light up like the morning sun when she would look at you. I pray
for the chance to have some more memeories of you. I won't stop looking or
praying for you and thanks for making me want to have kids of myu own. I can't
wait to see you again. I'll be waiting for you so hang tough. Hoss.
<mailto:>- 1002725802
Big Brother
Hey Little Brother! I wonder where you are and what you are going through? I
only wish I could ease your mind somehow. I think about youu everyday, the times
we shared, the times we should have shared, the times we will share again! I
have only the precious moments we shared to keep the light shining bright, a
light that will always shine. I remember the times you and Lisa used to bug the
heck out of me, lets go play, tickle me, and the every day things ya'll would do
to get my attention. I only wish I had given you more time and more attention,
or came a watched one more ball game.I think about your shreaking little voice,
calling me when you were scared at night or sleeping next to me on those chilly
nights. The things we take for granted, Wish for just one more day. One day to
go fishing or swimming at the pond, One day to run and play hide and seek, One
day to say I love you little brother and I'm proud of you. You have three little
nieces that will always know you and call you uncle, for you will always be a
part of my family..blood or not! I LOVE YOU LITTLE BROTHER... and I will see you
again!!!
your Big brother
Steve
stevenjeffress@aol.com <mailto:stevenjeffress@aol.com>
- 1002594796
lindaboatright
Dearest Jeffrey: Each day I pray that this will be that "special day"
that God will bring you home to your Mom & Family. She will not rest until
HE does. We believe in MIRACLE'S & we're waiting for yours!!!
<mailto:>- 1002580673
Layla, Joseph & Payton Al-Khateib
Dear Family, We will keep Jeffery in our prayers.
layla_chemait@hotmail.com <mailto:layla_chemait@hotmail.com>
- 1002573069
jerry stamps
Everyone misses you,so come home soon.Jed needs another basketball,ha!. He still
remembers when you brought him one (probably from school,huh?)
<mailto:>- 1002317004
tristy erwin vansickle
Jeffrey, its your cousin Tristy, Alvies daughter. We have only met a few times,
but you and I look alot alike we carrier the darker blood of the family. I have
kept in touch with your mom and misty lately. I plan on coming out to your moms
soon to see her. hopefully you will be around. We have a lot of catching up to
do.
tristyvs@cs.com <mailto:tristyvs@cs.com>
- 1002241557
Teena Macon-Welker
I miss you, that HUGE smile that was ever present on your handsome face, the big
hugs you always gave to everyone you cared for. I pray every night that you will
come home to your family.
teenawelker@hotmail.com <mailto:teenawelker@hotmail.com>
- 1002227270
Kristina Allen
Jeffrey, I dont know where to start. The main thing I wanted to tell you is that
I miss you so much and think about you all the time, I wish you could be here to
see me graduate, but I keep praying that you will run in about the time a walk
across the stage. I just wanted to thank you, for always being there for me when
I was Freshman in High School, you always watched over me and made sure no guys
messed with me or picked on my..THANKS BUBBA!! I remember all the fun times Me,
you and misty would have together, I think of those thoughts all the time. I
don't know what I would have done if your werent there my freshman year, I still
remember as soon as I walked up the steps the very first day you were there
waiting on me to give me one of those HUGE BEAR HUGS that you love to give all
the time, I MISS THOSE SO MUCH! Its hard for me to look at Preston some times
cause he reminds me so much of you and how you acted in school. He misses you so
much too Jeffrey, I know the whole family does, so PLEASE come back to us, where
ever you are.. I LOVE YOU and will always be here when you need someone to talk
to. You are always in my prayers...Thank of ya always. Love Kristina
covergirl92@hotmail.com <mailto:covergirl92@hotmail.com>
- 1002150243
Linda Miller (mom)
Jeffrey, I dreamt about you last night. You were on a huge boat, not a cruise
ship, maybe a fishing boat. I was walking on the boat and you came through the
open doorway from the deck. You had on a white and yellow t-shirt. I ran to you
and put my arms around your neck, saying "Jeffrey, Jeffrey," over and
over again. I started to pass out and my arms came unclamped from your neck(you
were holding me like a young child)and I told myself "No, I can't pass out
I may loose you again" and I willed myself awake and put my arms around
your neck as you walked through the boat carrying me. I woke up and cried and
thanked God for letting me be in your arms one more time. I love you Jeffrey!!
<mailto:>- 1002131197
Rebecca Curtis
jeffery, i don't know you but i know members of your family. think of them often
wondering were you are. my prayers are with you and your family. i see this
message please call home. everyone there misses you and wants you home. from
what i understand you touched many lives. Rebecca Curtis
beckums1@juno.com <mailto:beckums1@juno.com>
- 1002091117
Sissy
Hey bubba,
I was just going to show you something I wrote since we always argued about spirituality and faith. I thought this would mean a lot to you to know that I finally know what you're talking about.
Alive by Alisa M. Ben She stares into a world that can never be her own, but
she looks deep into as though it will change her life. Her visions of this world
may not be perceived the same as others that have looked into this looking glass
to find the same world. However, she looks from an eye that one has never looked
through before. She sees a familiar face and she tries to touch it to make it
real, but her hand moves through it like smoke that evaporates through touch.
She hears the sounds of the heavens, but when she tries to speak only she can
hear the audible sounds of loneliness. No response from the sounds, but she
presses on, straining in her throat to yell as loud as she can to something that
is not there. It is there though, to her it is real and it is heaven. She cries
out to the vision of the most perfect entity she has ever known. Her anger fills
through her body and causes her to erupt from the hurt amidst her, as she falls
to her knees and begs to die. The calmness of a being surrounds her soul and she
takes a deep breath to feel the broken heart that has hope. When she exhales
into the entity her breath evaporates to become one and she lets her soul join
this love that only she can know. She opens her eyes and sees a creation so
surreal that her eyes fill with tears and she learns how to breathe. She opens
her hands and as she slowly closes them, she feels the fingertips of the one
that watches over her and the one she trusts. Her hands close into a fist and
she closes her eyes to let her soul fill up with the heavens. Her head tilts
back as far as it will go and she breathes for the first time ever while she
raises her fists in the air feeling this love fill her with the heavens and
shouts, "I am alive!"
halfacup@prodigy.net <mailto:halfacup@prodigy.net>
- 1002090208
Phyllis Alexander
Hot Shot, I sure miss your hugs and "Hi, Aunt Phyllis". I will always
remember the year I taught you how to make frybread at deer camp. You are in
Uncle Roosters and my prayers daily. We love you.
alexanderp@pisp.net <mailto:alexanderp@pisp.net>
- 1002006282
preston hamilton
jeffrey,i miss you more than words can say.I think about you every day and
night,I think of all the things we've been through together.You have always been
like my big brother,and the closess cousin I have.Well I'll just keep on praying
and looking for you till I find you. Ihope too see u soon,love always Jiro
I_B_I_G120@hotmail.com <mailto:I_B_I_G120@hotmail.com>
- 1002000273
tammy stamps
jeffrey, I have so many thoughts of you, I don't even know where to begin. Every
night when we go bed,you are number one on our prayer list. The entire family
misses beyond what words could ever tell. You are so handsome,beautiful, and
sweet,such an honor to have you in our family.I love and miss you so bad. We
will never quit trying to find you. loves, hugs, and lots of prayers.
tamoliestamps@hotmail.com <mailto:tamoliestamps@hotmail.com>
- 1001997189
Leslee Breshears
I never knew you that well, but I do know that you were a very good friend to my
sis, Rar. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Breshears@leaco.net <mailto:Breshears@leaco.net>
- 1001994472
Destiny Buchanan
Jeffrey when I think of you the first thought is your smile! That I will never
forget! To me that is your trademark! In all of the searching and praying I
think most of the day that you were saved! I remember seeing the smile on your
face as you knelt in prayer and excepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior! That I
will always be thankful for and I thank God everyday for letting me be one of
the people that got to witness such an event in any person's life expecially
yours! Until' we meet again you will be in my prayers and I know that The Lord's
Army Of Angels are watching over you!
Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com <mailto:Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com>
- 1001988441
Sheila Allen
Jeffrey, this is Oct.1, 2001 and you are still gone. We miss you Jeffrey. I hope
and pray you are somewhere reading these words of love that everyone is posting
about you. Thank you for watching over Kristina and being her "big
bubba" when she started high school. You are always on our minds, I looked
for you at the Choctaw Festival and thought I seen you, I had to turn around and
look the guy in the face to make sure it wasen't you. We hope and pray everyday
that you walk back into our lives just as quick as you left. Hope to see you
soon!
sunseteve65@hotmail.com <mailto:sunseteve65@hotmail.com>
- 1001985383
shelly and mattie <cant wait to see your smile>
Michelle Hodges
Jeffrey, We all love you and hope that you come home soon. When you get there
and I'm going to bring Josh and Brandon to see you, you wouldn't beleive how big
they've gotten. Jeffrey we all LOVE and MISS you and if you can at all imagine
how much when you come home we're going to show you. We are going to dog pile
you LOVE, HUG, and KISS you till we can't anymore. Your mom, sister, brothers,
just everyone of us love you and miss you. PLEASE come home or call your mom. I
HOPE your safe. LOVE YOU MICHELLE HODGES
misthodges@hotmail.com <mailto:misthodges@hotmail.com>
- 1001972907
Granny Montano
My sweet Jeffrey call us - call your mom - call me - we love you and your sweet
smile.
none <mailto:none> - 1001967877
Shelly "Sis" Ben
Jeffrey, You are SO special to all of us, We Love you SO Very much! Everytime I
walk past my windows I pray to see you walking up in my yard, with your
beautiful smile and a big Hug. Everytime Chris and I walk into a crowd of
friends and family, it is not the same without you there saying "RASTUS..RASTUS!"
You little KISSING BANDIT! hehe I can still hear you saying " I'M JEFFREY
BEN" with so much pride. We have always been so proud of you! We all miss
you so much. You always have a smile and love for us all, and We need you back
so badly! We are all praying for you to come home to us. I know in my heart I
will see your smile again. I love you Bubba!
sisnraf@hotmail.com <mailto:sisnraf@hotmail.com>
- 1001967694
Crystal Russell
Jeffrey, The hardest thing I've ever had to do was to produce missing person
signs with your picture on them. I used to babysit you & Lisa during the
summers and even though you are my cousin, I love you & your sister as if
you were my own children. I would give anything to see you in the arms of your
precious mother again. I pray for you daily & try to process the grief of
not knowing where to look for you. To me you'll always be "Baby
Jeffrey". I adore you. Love your big cousin, Crystal
crystal@vitalsignco.com <mailto:crystal@vitalsignco.com>
- 1001960844
Rachel Parrish
Jeffrey- I have never had the honor of meeting you before... but I feel as if I
already know you. You are a star to everyone who knows you. Your sister and I
met at college... pretty cool chick. I have never seen a mother love her
children as much as yours. And I pray that wherever you are, you are safe and
the Lord has his hands on you. Your family loves you and wants to hear your
voice more than anything else in this world. So, take it from me... you have
quite the family one could only dream of. Jeffrey, I would love to meet you
someday and tell you all the things you don't know about your oh so funny and
crazy sister... I'm sure you know some of it, but I can fill you in on the rest!
Come back very soon so we can chat Jeffrey, because I've never met a star
before... Rachel
rsp74075@yahoo.com <mailto:rsp74075@yahoo.com>
- 1001958894
Lisa
Hey bubba, There is so much I have to tell you that I don't even know where to
start, but you hear me when I talk to you so you probably know. I graduated
college finally - yay! Remember that damn ET doll that Conley Wright would tell
me was of the devil? Mark likes it so much now that I gave it to him. ha. Dad
and I made up - you would be proud of me. I think about you all the time. I
still owe you $600 so you have to come collect! I'm being a crazy hippie still.
ha. I love you Jeffrey. I know you're doing okay and despite selfishness and the
insanity here that you know all of us love you. I wrote some things for you so
maybe one day you'll get to read them. I believe in you bubba and if I never
said it enough.....I think you're amazing. However, I'll still let you tickle my
back for one hundred seconds and cheat when it's my turn....ha. So far, you've
been gone 22 holidays....I love you.
halfacup@prodigy.net <mailto:halfacup@prodigy.net>
- 1001955963
Rika Courtney
It is my hope that your precious Jeffrey be found and that this all has a
perfectly illogical explanation that will make everything all right. Lighting
candles for you. Sending love and support.
rubyblue_wellies@yahoo.com <mailto:rubyblue_wellies@yahoo.com>
- 1001955921
Linda Miller
Son, I miss you so much! My life will never be the same without you in it. If
you are somewhere out there I continually pray that God will watch over you. I
gave you to him at 6 mos. old so I have to believe in his grace. Jeffrey I miss
your beautiful face, big smile, and big bear hugs. You mean everything to me.
Your sister and brothers want you home so badly. If we don't get to see you
again here-we WILL see you in heaven. I love you son!!!!I will continue to look
for you until you are found or until I die-I promise you that.
<mailto:>- 1001952528
mom
Son, I am in Clayton today. The drive here is getting harder and harder for me.
It hits me about 10 miles out of Antlers and the tears start and the hurt is
almost more than I can bear. It is gut-wrenching. Then a calm overtakes me and I
am determined more than ever to find you. This is one mystery that WILL NOT go
unsolved! You are too important and special to too many people. I love you
beyond anything words can convey. I am driving your sister crazy because I
cannot get you off my mind and talk about you constantly--I want everyone to be
as driven as I am to find you. Your uncles Thed and Puff are my heroes. They are
as driven and I know have done everything short of killing someone to find out
what happened to you. I have a few friends that have been there throughout this
entire ordeal and are also driven to find you son. We will not let time or
anything else stop us. With God's help we WILL find you!!!
<mailto:>- 1015357493
Sheila Allen
Hi Jeffrey. It's the 1st of March and you are still not home, I can't believe
it's been this long. You need to come home, ASAP! Kristina will be getting
married the 1st of June Jeffrey, we would love nothing more than to have you
there to share it with. Even though people go about their daily lives and do
what they need to do, we still remember you and think about you all the time and
wonder where you are. You are in our thoughts constantly and how could we forget
about you anyway? You are family, someone we love and miss more and more
everyday. Somebody may have took your presence from our lives, but your memory
and how much we love you will always be there, they will never take that away.
<mailto:>- 1015002748
mom
Hi Son, I am very angry today. I am angry that you are not here. I am angry that
I cannot find you. I am angry that I let you move to Clayton. I am angry that
the ones I trusted to take care of you didn't. I am angry that 13 months have
passed and the ones I thought loved you most and would do everything in their
power to find you have not done everything in their power to find you. I am
angry that I can't see you, I am angry that I can't touch you. I am angry
because I know with all my heart that if you could be here you would be. I am
angry because SOMEONE is responsible for you not being here and they are living
their life without a thought for the people they have hurt. Even if you are
alive Jeffrey I know you would be here if you could be. I watch as your sister
stares into space and nothing seems to make her happy. I am angry that Blake's
idol has been taken away from him. I am angry that Mark is angry with you
because he hears me cry all the time and knows it is because of what has
happened to you and he says "please moma don't cry over Jeffrey". I am
angry because the holidays will never the same without you. I am so angry and
soooo sad because a hole has been ripped in my heart and there is nothing I can
do to keep you off my mind. I pray that God will forgive me for wishing that
anyone responsible for hurting you would not exist anymore and he would help me
not to have those thoughts. Jeffrey, I love you so much. It is almost unbearable
at times. It is so hard to go on with life because life does not have the
meaning it used to have anymore. It is not the happy, safe world that I thought
it was. I know you thought it was too, son and I am so sorry that I didn't warn
you about the evil, but I honestly did not think that anyone in Clayton would
ever hurt you. I, like you trusted everyone but not anymore. I am afraid to let
Lisa go by herself to see her dad because I don't want anything to happen to her
as she goes through Clayton. Life should not be this way. I get so afraid son
and I have to pray and pray to overcome it. God has given me tremendous strength
and emotional stability and I will use that to do everything in my power to find
you and if anyone hurt you to make sure they DO NOT go unpunished. You are
always on my mind son and since I have written this I am not so angry anymore
because God blessed me so much to have you in my life. Even my memories are
better than nothing at all.
<mailto:>- 1014931907
Jennifer (Pugh) Sisk
Jeffrey...I can't count the times I have been here, not a day goes by that I
don't think about you and wonder where you are and what you are doing, And I
will continue thinking about you until you are in your mom and dad's arms! WE
MISS YOUR BIG SMILE COME HOME JEFFREY!!!
jensisk@hotmail.com <mailto:jensisk@hotmail.com>
- 1014799247
Uncle Puff & Aunt Jackie
Jeffrey, As we drive cross country, from east to west, form north to south, we
keep wondering why people are staring at us. Some look sad at us and others are
holding thier hearts, then it finally dawns on us that they are looking at your
picture that we have on our trucks. Your Mom bought those signs so we can go
cross country showing your picture to everyone. We are all hoping this will jog
someone's memory or maybe someone will remember something or has seen you. We
don't know how many times we've look at a hitchiker hoping and praying that it's
you, and we can bring you home and give your Mom and family the best present
they have ever had! Maybe our prays will be answered soon. We love you and miss
you!
jackiefay@hotmail.com <mailto:jackiefay@hotmail.com>
- 1014786477
Destiny
Jeffrey, I think people should write to you more often! It's like they forget,
but I wonder how that's possible. I have been thinking about you A LOT lately.
Every time I look at Preston I see you at first! It scares me, but in away I
love it cause it's like I still have you here with me--I wonder if I am the only
one who thinks that way--! I think about you all the time! It's like you occupy
my mind at times! In class, it looks like I'm listening, but really I'M NOT! I
am thinking about you and where you could be. I want to be Shelock Holmes and
SOLVE THE BIG MYSTERY. What I wouldn't give to have you back here! It's funny
but at night I want to lay under the stars forever just because I know that you
may be looking at the same one I am, and I think that maybe if we wished on the
same one at the same time you would be back here! DO YOU THINK IT COULD HAPPEN?
I HAVE FAITH! I wonder if we will ever know where you are and what exactly
happened but I refuse to quit searching! DON'T YOU FEEL SPECIAL KNOWING YOU MEAN
THAT MUCH TO ME?!? I would if I were you (ha!ha!) Bunches of hugs!!!
Destiny <mailto:Destiny> - 1014704894
Destiny
Jeffrey, GUESS WHAT? Our boys are going to state! I know that it would make the
occasion double special if you were there to watch--(if you have noticed I am
trying to bribe you to come home!) Where ever you are know that I am thinking of
you bunches! Love you ALWAYS!
Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com <mailto:Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com>
- 1014538654
morgangrammer
hey jeffrey i miss you come home your mom is wared please come home your in my
prairs
morgangrammer <mailto:morgangrammer> -
1014493670
morgangrammer
hey jeffrey i miss you come home your mom is wared pleas come home your in my
prairs
morgangrammer <mailto:morgangrammer> -
1014493645
<HALLIE>
morgangrammer
hey jeffrey i miss you come home i thank about you all the time in class at home
and in my heart god is in your heart your mom miss you alot and you sister i
miss you alot i will right back aways love morgangrammer
morgangrammer <mailto:morgangrammer> -
1014348896
Lisa
Hey Jeff,
I'm home for 2 months. Blake is already 8! Can you believe that? He needs you
to come home and show him how to do Math because he missed 14!! You know how
you're so smart in Math! I miss you lots. Things are a lot darker without
you...you were so full of life. I could use your smile around. Writing another
book - I pulled out my old book that I finished 4 years ago (113 pages) and it
made me think about you a lot. I wish you were here...my life now seems like
it's entirely abyssmal and vaccumous - I'll give you time to look up those words
Bub - kidding. The days pass and I wonder if you'll ever come back.
<mailto:>- 1014347051
morgan
hey jeffrey-i dont know you but i know your mother and brothers.please come home
your mother needs you and your sister and brothers i miss you awayslove
MORGANGRAMMER
morgangrammer <mailto:morgangrammer> -
1014169291
me
Jeffrey, Hey hows it goin' just sittin' here thinkin' bout you and wondering
when you were goin' to come home you got so many friends and family that love
you and miss you. We just want you to home home to us. Please come home soon!!!
<mailto:>- 1014018258
Shelly Ben
Hey GoodLookin' I took you some Valentine's to the tree and the sign in town the
other Day. I went back to the tree today your Mom and Granny Ben and Ellen had
also brought you stuff. We all want you to "Be our Valentine" hehe We
all miss you so much. I am finding myself going there more and more. I guess I
hope to find you there or find something that will help us understand what has
happened to you and what can bring you back to us. I have dreamed you came home
a few times in the last weeks. Just walked up in my yard and smiled and and came
in and hugged me like you had never been missing. What I would give to have that
dream come true. Bub you can't imagin how many people pray for you to come home
everyday , several times a day. It seems to me everyone has heard of JEFFREY BEN
and is praying for you. Please come home to us. It is like a big chunk of our
heart has been ripped out. We miss you SO much!! We love you more than any words
can say! I love you! Love sis
sisnraf@hotmail.com <mailto:sisnraf@hotmail.com>
- 1013841627
Destiny
Jeffrey, I catch myself somedays just sitting in class trying to put the pieces
to your disapperance together. I try and make deals with God asking him to just
bring you home! Like your sister my wishes are only for you and about you. When
I see a star at night and I get to make a wish on the very first (WITHOUT FAIL)
I will make every wish just for you. Before EVERY basketball game I make a wish
on a star on the flag and those wishes also are for you. Every time I have an
excuse to make a wish it's truely for you. I know already that when I blow my
candles out this year for my birthday they also will be FOR YOU! I want you to
know that you are continuely on my mind (like so many other people's). You are
truely a very special person and I know that where ever you are you are under
the same sky I am and you may also be wishing on MY STAR!!!
Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com <mailto:Destinyhopeb@hotmail.com>
- 1013816638
Kristina
Happy Valentines Day Bubba!!!! Wish I could tell you that in person...I miss
you! Im still praying......I love you!
From Kristina and Kayli
covergirl92@hotmail.com <mailto:covergirl92@hotmail.com>
- 1013797212
MOM (Linda Miller)
Happy Valentines Day son. I wish you were here! I can't stand it without you.
Why has this happened? I don't understand-WHY, WHY, WHY? You are the most
beautiful, perfect son in the world? WHERE ARE YOU?!!! Please someone, tell
me!!! I got Mark and Blake a valentines "TY" beanie baby and got Lisa
a pretty card. I got you one too son and hung it on 9-pine road. Son, I miss you
so much, I can't express it in words. I need you son. Wherever you are son-I
love you with my entire heart and soul. I will find you son-someday, somehow
with God's help I WILL FIND YOU. You are always on my mind. Blakes favorite son
that remind him of you is "not a day goes by" by lonestar. It is
beautiful and we listen to it all the time. We love you son!!!
<mailto:>- 1013709451
Kristina
hey bubba!! I know its been awhile since I have wrote you, been a little busy
here lately, feeling out college stuff and things to scholarships for college. I
miss you so much bubba, I went to your candle light vigil and it was hard to
just sit there and watch the video that they made for you, I wanted to scream..
Me and charity went to the wreck site after the vigil was over and all the way
over there and all the way back, you were all we talked about, me and her both
miss you so much, and was sharing all those great memories that we had together
with you. we both could not believe that it had been already a year and still no
trace of you or anything, jeffrey no one can just disappear off the face of the
earth and no one know anything about it, and especially here in clayton its just
not right, for this town to hush up about something like this,when usally they
talk and talk and talk, but all I know is that god knows what happened to you
and he knows who done this to you and they will suffer the consequences when the
day comes. but until then the whole family misses you still and always and no
matter how many times we say it or write it down, I will never ever forget you,
your always in my heart, forever and always. I LOVE YOU BUBBA!!! forever.....
Love Kristina
covergirl92@hotmail.com <mailto:covergirl92@hotmail.com>
- 1013549428
AT
Hi Jeffrey, Its been a year since you left us. Where are you? Why can't you come
home to us? I miss you more than ever. I think about you day and night, you are
my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night. I wish I could see
you, I wish I could be on the receiving end of one of your HUGE hugs, see that
big smile one more time. One More Day, thats one of the songs they played at
your vigil, I think thats how everyone feels, if we only had one more day, what
would we all do differently? I know what I would do. I see your Mom and I see
how this has affected her, I wish she would find out something. I wish you could
walk up to her right now and end all this hell she has been through this last
year. Time will tell Jeffrey, it will tell us where you have been and what
happened on that fateful night last year. Guilt will eat away at the person or
persons who knows what happened, they will have to come forth someday. But when
will that day be? It's been a year already thats too long for someone to have to
go through what your mom and sister is having to go through. I miss you
Jeffrey...I love you.
<mailto:>- 1012807985
Lisa (Sissy)
Jeff, The strangest feeling occurred on between 11pm on Jan 28th and 1am on Jan
29th....At 11pm I looked at my watch (I didn't have a white candle but I had a
patchouli one which I actuall took from mom- go figure as you would say
"You big hippie" - hey whatever works, right?)..At any rate, 11pm I
was thinking that you were possibly well and doing your thing...midnight I
wasn't sure...at 1am I knew you were probably into the realm of what we know as
"Jeffrey Missing" a year ago. I felt helpless as I have for a few days
over a year. When the time hit after midnight I wanted to change it back so bad.
I wanted it to remain a time when you were alive and well and smiling your huge
Ben smile...ha...I wish you could see this pic of me that I took here (New York)
you would laugh at my cheesing it.
I'm sorry I couldn't be at the vigil (you know me I am always in some big city somewhere with no money being nomadic - look the word up later bub - ha). I really miss you. I remember the last time I saw you at least a million times a day in my head. I remember the last time you called me...actually this year I looked at my watch on that day and said, "This time last year my brother and I were arguing about Western Union."
Every time I complete something that I am proud of I think of you...you always have believed in me and what I was doing. I believe in you too Jeffrey - I alwats have.
I wish things could have been different and it would be me instead of you missing...the old saying, "You never know what you have until it's gone" holds true...I remember the last time I talked to you...I got a weird feeling but I distinctly remember crying because I knew that you loved me more than any woman ever (besides mom) and I felt in my heart this overwhelming love for you...I feel it even now. I love you bubba....after all I prayed for you for 5 years before I got you.
L
halfacup@halfacupentertainment.com <mailto:halfacup@halfacupentertainment.com>
- 1012771423
Billiejean
Dear Jeffery, Linda and kids, I breaks my heart everyday to think of the pain
and sorrow you all live with. I know how important it is for you to find the
truth, and you will, I know this as surly as I know tomorrow will come. We can
never run from evil, nor can evil hide forever. The truth will come. It is never
easy waiting for the answers,but you will have them. God watches over us all and
give us the strength to move ahead, he is working and he is with you. I will say
with conviction that those involved will be punished beyond all measure, all
those who have kept quiet, all those who have hid the truth, will not see a day
of rest or a day of peace, but you the one's that have loved Jeffery and kept
his memory alive will have the peace you long for and the truth to allow you to
carry on. We love you. I have printed out Jefferys photo, and placed it in a
frame, so even here he will be in our hearts